December 2005 Archives

~Updated: Time of our gig is changed to 10pm~
It's nearing the end of 2005 and for the first time, my band, LGF, is playing for a countdown event at Countdown 2006@Boon Lay on the 31st of Dec (please click to find out more about the programme and venue). In short, the highlights of the countdown will be performances put up by Hong Junyang, one of the Superstar finalist, Mediacorp artistes Jeanette Aw, Felicia Chin, Jeff Wang, dance and band performances, a foam party and more...We'll be banging up the heat at 10.10pm to 10.40pm as the last act around 12.10am...so, do drop by if you're free or if you're staying in that area and party with us to a new year ;)

Recently, I finally got the chance to watch the original 1973 version of 'The Exorcist' but with the missing scenes added. We (my bro and I) also got hold of 'The Exorcist: The Beginning' and 'The Exorcism of Emily Rose' DVDs. Sounds a litle fanatic over these shows, but after watching two of these films, they got me more intrigued (as well as disturbed) by the dark forces around us. It's quite coincidental that weeks ago before watching the films, I had a nightmare that I was disturbed by such forces...I can still remember I was covered by a blanket and 'something' violently shook me...damn, still send chills down my spine when I think about it. After watching the films, it gave me more insight and understanding to things on posessions. Now they got me really curious about things like 'The Roman Ritual of Exorcism' and the real life Emily Rose case...very touchy and sensitive topics :/

Moving onto a different topic...Lately, I experienced for myself something similiar to what many quoted 'The more you want/looking for something, the less likely it'd appear...and just when you least expected it, it comes along'. However, it's with a wicked twist though. I'm not going into details for now...I still think that alot of 'wrong' people have entered into my life, but despite that, I can only hope that one right person will change my life for the better.

Something bizarre but naively beautiful just happened and I do wish it'll make a difference this time...

Wrote a short new song the other day. It's called "On a night like this" (right-click to download). Wanted to try something different, thus this little bluesjazz-influenced piece even though I know nuts about blues (and jazz) and all, just anyhow whack (heck, I know there are definitely things that sound weird or wrong in there but I'll leave it as it is). When I listen to it, it gives me different feelings each time...sometimes, images of neon lights on empty streets, sometimes a rainy night with cars passing by...other times, it reminds me of film noir, but the only common element is the loneliness and melancholy present.

This time, I utilised a midi-based keyboard programme Seto uploaded, thus I was finally able to add in some keyboard/piano/strings/ambience type of sounds which definitely made things more interesting than just a drum machine and layers of guitars :) Not sure if my band, LGF, will be keen to incorporate it into our repertoire and make it into a jammable/live version with sultry female vocals ;)

I stayed at home for 4 days consecutively while last minute clearing my leave. Didn't shave for 4 days and looking haggard like this:

Without any styling of my hair, stubbles-growing out and donning my spectacles, no wonder this ah pek feels like writing a jazzy song lah! *lol*

On a different note, I stumbled upon the news of a local blogger, Sondra of Idle Days who suddenly passed away roughly a month ago due to a rare blood disorder. Even though I've not read her blog before or known her, it's still somewhat unbelieveable and freaky kinda strange feeling to see her last entry that inevitably led to her passing on. Nevertheless, a tinge of sadness still hits me, and sparked me some thoughts.

If I ever leave this world in such a sudden fashion, would those who'd know me...either just acquaintance, online-only, msn-only, music-related ones, etc ever know what has happened to me? For one who's capable of not updating his blog for more than a month, or not appear on msn for days, or respond to certain smses, I think the world will pass me by for weeks or even months without realising I'd no longer be around *lol* It may sound strange but if I wanna leave this world, I wanna say a proper 'goodbye' to everyone in my life. Everyone is important to me as you're part of my life. Even those who've hurt me or those who've now forgotten me. Afterall, each and everyone out there is once part of my life and has shaped me to become the person I am now. Of course, there are specific things I'd say to some, but if given the chance, I'd still like to tell them how much they mean to me for the last time.

All these are still possible unless I happen to pass away suddenly. So, I figured I need to do a few things in advance. Maybe I should write out an impromptu will of sorts. This one will definitely need some thinking. Take my guitars for example, I don't even know what to do with them or who to give them to when I leave! I mean, if I've got my own children, I'll definitely give them all to them and hopefully, pass down to the future generations but in situations like this, maybe I'll just leave them to my family as remembrance but if they don't want them, I'll have them donated or something :)

I'd also want my family members to know about the diaries I've kept in my drawers. In fact, I want them to discover everything I've kept. Songs I've written, my blog entries, pictures taken, everything...kept in my computer. They'll definitely discover things about me they've never seen/known...wonderful/terrible/strange/intriguing sides of me.

Last but not least, I'm gonna let my closest friends cum bandmembers know the password to this blog and ask of them to post an entry announcing my departure over here, should I not have the chance ^^

Ahhh...a solemn entry but it's necessary! *lol*